Out of Darkness Comes the Light

Healthy Vibes for Healthy Lives

Yesterday I awoke to a heaviness in the air. I had been tossing and turning for hours until it was finally time to get out of bed. I didn’t think much of it, but I knew that my energy was a bit off. It wasn’t until I reached for my phone that I realized what was going on. It was September 11th. And it seemed the somber energy of that tragic day had returned to me once again.

I went onto Facebook to perhaps write something meaningful, something thoughtful about how we’ll always remember, never forget. But as I quickly scrolled through my news feed, I saw posts one after another already doing just that. At first glance, seeing all of these posts made me sad. The pictures of the twin towers and the American flag reminded me of the tragedy we all felt and experienced that fateful day, 13 years ago. I was sad for all of the lives…

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Seeking Truth

It has been a long time since I have posted. Thankfully, I have been distracted from writing not because of sickness or disasters of any kind, but because of pursuing some dreams. I am back in school after 33 years! The only reason I ended up back in school is because I chose to listen to my heart and not my head.

I have wanted to get my master’s degree for about 20 years now. But 20 years ago, I was swept up by life happening to me, trying to stay afloat in what felt like a tsunami at times and being happy with just surviving. Since that time, I have had a spiritual awakening and have been on a different kind of path. I believe I am the creator of my reality. Today, if my life feels like a tsunami, I KNOW it is just a reflection of my inner world.  I am grateful to KNOW this. I don’t always live it but at least I KNOW it and that is huge. Knowing this allows me to no longer be a victim to my circumstances. One of my practices for living a deliberate life, is to start each day with a stated intention.  An example of this is “Universe, I intend to help others create purposeful, happy, healthy lives. Please bring me the tools and show me the pathway to live this intention.” Then I acknowledge that this request has been granted even though I may not have received it and I say “Thank YOU!” It is like ordering something in a catalog and you give your order and your billing and shipping information and you BELIEVE that you will receive it and you excitedly wait for the delivery.  That is how my intentions work but I never know at what rate I will receive my delivery. I don’t work for the delivery company. My work is in my believing, allowing and taking inspired actions. So, there you have it… the basic blueprint of how I live my life.

In February of this year, an email caught my eye that introduced a new program called “Spirituality Mind Body Summer Intensive” in the clinical psychology department at Columbia University. Since I am a nurse and a Law of Attraction Life Coach, this was definitely something that was right up my alley. My heart was racing with excitement as I read about it; my heart saying to me “This is for you!” I told my husband about it later that day and he validated that it sounded perfect for me and was very supportive of me pursuing this. (BTW, I KNOW I am really lucky to have a husband like that!) However,  I had my own demons to confront–those little “lies” that disguise themselves as “wise words” and they sound like this: “You don’t have the money ”;  “You’re not going to get in”; “You’re not smart enough”; “You are too old”; “You are too busy.”  These “wise words,” the voice of practicality, are the “lies” we have learned to live with that have cut many of us off from living authentic, powerful lives.

Although these little demons, these “lies” showed up, I recognized them as such, and I chose to ignore them.  Instead, I listened to my heart and applied to the program.  I wrote my essay, I got my college transcript from 33 years ago and I waited. My husband shared with a few people that I had applied to school. Not everyone applauds your dreams and encourages you, not because they are ill-intentioned, but they are conditioned with “wise words” of their own. So I heard things like “What is the return on investment of getting your masters at your age?” and “WHAT will you do with THAT degree?” and “Aren’t you TOO busy already?” I have learned not to get too insulted by these kinds of statements and to realize that they are speaking from their own past conditioning.  I can choose to ignore them.  I can seek what is true for me.  So, I decided to wait and see what the Universe has in store for me.

In mid-April, I received the email from Columbia. I was accepted! My heart was racing once again, reading this email. I ran down and told my husband and daughter. My husband did not hesitate in his response “Done deal….you’re going.”  How awesome for him to be so open and supportive.  I, on the other hand, was not that kind and supportive to myself.  All the “wise words,” the practical mind talk came rushing back.  These “wise words” told me all the reasons why I should not pursue this program of study.  I had a month to make a decision. My plan was to meditate on what is “right” for me, to speak with “safe” people and to seek the truth. The next week I was sharing with a women’s support group I belong to about all the things holding me back from accepting: the money, the time commitment, my age. One of the women  who KNOWS me, came up to me after the meeting ended and first stated that she thought the program was absolutely perfect for me and then asked me “if one of your children got into a perfect program for their journey what would you advise them?” and I KNEW my answer in that moment. If I could love myself the way I love my children, I would go to this program that was made specifically for me. I accepted! For 3 weeks this summer I was in school 9 hours a day, Monday through Friday and I loved every minute of it. I KNOW it is my path and this path will open the door for other paths. Where will all these paths lead me? I have no idea, but I KNOW this: the destination is not the point. The journey, every step of it, is what matters….so do what makes your heart race, learn to recognize the “lies,” and love yourself enough to say “yes” to your heart’s desires.  What is fueling your next big decision?

I Am Magnificence, You are Magnificence

De-cluttering my work, my house, my mind….
One day at a time.

Busy, busy but present in my body. NO past, NO future,
Focusing only on what is in front of me.

I AM Source.
But what does that mean?
Power? Knowledge? Wisdom?
Desire? Well-Being? Love?
Yes! Yes! Yes! All of it!

“But how do I access this Source?” you ask.
Get quiet. Plug in. Know that it is there for the taking….
Not just the holy ones,
Not just the rich ones,
Not just the poor ones…

“But why” you ask “do some people plug-in and others don’t?”
Good question. Now we are getting to the crux of the matter. It’s the human condition.
Some people don’t know where the outlet is.  Some people know where the outlet is but they don’t BELIEVE it works….not for them, anyway.
The problem: unworthiness.
The solution: TRUTH. The TRUTH is we are all gods, goddesses, miracles, angels, whatever term you want to use to label the MAGNIFICENCE of your being.
Sadly, we are told from an early age to GET REAL!
So, we comply…and we suffer…..and the biggest tragedy of all is we forget who we truly are.
Today, just for today, I would like to remind you….All of you….YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT.

And, just maybe, if I remind you of this TRUTH, I will remember it also.

Intentions to put the HAPPY in the Holidays

I have a history of not liking the holidays. Maybe I did like the holidays when I was a kid and believed in Santa Claus but that was a long time ago! I have found the holidays stressful looking for that perfect something for the people in my life; it also brings up my limiting beliefs about not having enough time or money. Every year I have a recurring dream that it is Christmas morning and the gift that one of my kids asked Santa for is NOT under the Christmas tree. I started having this dream 24 years ago: it was about a Barbie doll that my then 3-year old daughter put on her Christmas letter to Santa. I can still remember the pure fright I felt when I awakened from that dream and how relieved I was to realize it was just a dream and that I still had 3 days to get to an overcrowded Toys R us to get the specific Barbie she wanted and the hope I had that it would be under the tree on Christmas morning to delight my darling daughter. Phew!! Then there is the whole Norman Rockwell picture of the holidays that we tend to compare our lives with.Then add onto all that the fact that we eat too much around the holidays and it just does not feel good physically! Plus, if you live in New York like I do and don’t like the snow and the cold, it is just the ICING on the cake.

So, I set out to set some intentions for the Holiday season. It is amazing when intentions are set, the Universe cooperates and people and circumstances come together for your benefit.

  • 1.       I intend to show my love and appreciation for friends and family this Holiday season. I may not find the perfect gift, but I will manage to be PRESENT for the people I love in whatever way seems to be appropriate.
  •  2.   I intend to be grateful for all I have. This means no comparing to the Norman Rockwell’s of the world. (When we are comparing ourselves to a picture it is not REAL! Everyone has their own struggles no matter what the picture or the painting looks like.) Being grateful means that the blessings I have are enough and all that I need! Being grateful keeps the focus on the blessings and not the struggles. It is all about FOCUS! Our thoughts become things as coined by Mike Dooley. Gratitude about all the good brings more good…plain and simple….but sometimes we are just not conditioned to be grateful. We did not grow up with grateful. So, we have to place an intention and make it a habitImage
  •  3.   I intend to do service.  Doing service gets us out of our own minds and helps us self-forget and possibly out of self-pity. Doing service reminds us that we are ALL one. If we can relieve someone else’s suffering, we receive as much benefit as the recipient of our service. Tonight I am bringing my daughter to make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for the homeless. I know we will leave there tonight feeling in the spirit of Christmas much more than our holiday shopping this afternoon will achieve.
  • 4.   I intend to BELIEVE in MIRACLES!  Maybe I don’t believe in Santa anymore but I sure can believe in Miracles. It is so easy to become cynical in this world. I stay away from negativity and cynics as best I can. I do not watch the news. Instead I watch and read uplifting stories. It is amazing how many great stories are circulated on social media each day. I watch them and laugh and cry and KNOW that MIRACLES happen all the time. What you focus on MAGNIFIES!Image
  • 5.   I intend to eat mindfully at all holiday events.  Sometimes at holiday parties with food overflowing, I go into default mode, as if I blacked out, I eat everything on the buffet table and afterwards I am saying to myself “How did that happen?” This year, I am intending to choose delightful food items from the buffet without mindlessly eating it ALL and feeling horrible afterwards.  I will let you know how it goes!

Lastly, I have an intention to become a person who LOVES the holidays. I have spent the last few decades just enduring, not enjoying, the holiday season, but this does not have to be a lasting legacy. I can decide today to enjoy the holidays with these new intentions. Happy Holidays to all! What are your holiday wishes? Turn them into intentions and remember YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF YOUR REALITY!


Keeping the Attitude of Gratitude after Thanksgiving

I am so grateful for the day I experienced yesterday…filled with love. It was a beautiful Thanksgiving. Now I am intending to keep that momentum going. There are things that I love and am grateful for and there are things in my life which I don’t love and they are disappointing and sad and painful. I am no different from any other human. I think it is true of everyone, the poor and the rich, the educated and the uneducated, everyone. But why is it always true that my life consists of both the “wanted” and the “unwanted” but sometimes I am happy and other times I am struggling? The answer is simple. It is what I am choosing to be on any given day.  It is what I am choosing to focus on.

I have learned that everything that manifests in my life appears through the lens of my thoughts. Are my thoughts those of love and appreciation or are they of judgment and resentment? What materializes is a reflection of what is going on internally. I have also learned that when I appreciate things, more things that I appreciate will start showing up in my life. So, here goes the rampage of appreciation:

·         I am surrounded by GOODNESS in my life. That goodness is in the form of living beings: my husband, my children, my parents, my sisters, my nieces and nephews, my in-laws, my friends, my neighbors, my clients and my dog. Thank you all for being part of my life and my journey!

·         I am grateful for my health. My heart continues to beat about 70 times per minute, 60 minutes each hour, 24 hours each day, 365 days a year. That is about 37 million heartbeats a year, without my having to do anything to make that happen! Well-being is innate in every cell in my body and my body knows what it needs.

·         I am grateful for the food that satisfies us, nourishes us and helps us commune with others, not only on Thanksgiving but every day of the year.

·         I am grateful that I know today that true abundance is there for the taking. It is not reserved for the few “lucky” ones.  Everyone who is alive is a “lucky” one including me. Knowing that makes all the difference in the world.

There are so many other things to list for which I am grateful but I am keeping it simple. If I keep my sights on these simple yet magnificent blessings in my life, I won’t get lost in the competitive mind of having the best car, the best house, and all the other bells and whistles we THINK we need for happiness. There is nothing wrong with wanting the best car or the best house or the vacation in Tahiti but the key is to not wait for those things to show up in my life in order to be grateful or to live joyously. What works is living in the world of appreciation and joy and love and the bells and whistles will end up materializing. Your wish-list manifests when you are living in the appreciation vibration! It has to show up. It is law, the Law of Attraction!

Nature is God’s Mirror

I was walking with my younger daughter hiking in the woods with our dog. As we came around the bend, we saw a reflection in the pond of the sun-glistened fall foliage. Both of us gasped at the beauty of the landscape and my daughter who was obviously awe-inspired said “Nature is God’s mirror.” Well, if I wasn’t blown away by the beauty of Mother Nature, I certainly was at my daughter’s words. My daughter is almost 9 years old. I asked her if she heard that phrase somewhere and she told me she had not. It was an original thought. I am sure it has been thought by others, but still….. Now I was pondering  my daughter’s statement and all I could come up with was “Nature is God’s mirror….You’re damned right!” That is why I almost always become peaceful while walking in the woods. That is why petting animals is so soothing to the soul. That is why holding an infant like I did last week, filled my heart to over-flowing. That is why fresh flowers in the house uplifts the spirit. I could go on, but you get the drift. Our inner beings need a mirror to reflect what we are. Nature is that mirror. So, if you are feeling down, or hopeless, or frustrated, or angry, or just plain anything less than happy, here are some ways to connect with Mother Nature and to see what you are made of at the core.

  • Plant a garden. Get your hands in the soil. We become “grounded” when we work with Mother Earth.
  • Pick some fresh flowers or go buy some. Grocery stores make flowers readily available. Their beauty is uplifting and the scent is good for the soul.
  • Watch the creatures that walk this earth. We can learn so much from these true masters. I love watching birds: They meet the day with song, with promise. They fly in formation. But one of my favorite teachers is my dog: My mentor of unconditional LOVE.
  • Take a hike. While walking, BREATHE deeply. Listen to the sounds of the forest: the leaves crinkling under your feet, the trickling of a nearby stream. Watch the sun sparkle through the tall trees. Let your thoughts float away like the clouds passing overhead.
  • Hold a baby, a newborn baby. A newborn represents the field of ALL POSSIBILITIES. How often has a parent thought, “He/she may be a future president!” A newborn holds so much promise and creates a desire in us to make sure that this human being has it better than we did. That desire has been the single most important motivating factor in my life in the last 30 years! 
  • Look into the eyes of a loved one. LOVE is WHO YOU ARE. When you are loving another, you are connected to your Source, to Mother Nature, to your Inner Being, to the Energy that creates worlds!
  • Walk barefoot on a beach. (No explanation needed.)
  • Watch the sunset or the sunrise. It’s magical.
  • Go out at night and look up at the sky. BREATHE!

We all want to live happy, peaceful lives. Some of us are waiting to be brought peaceful lives wrapped up and delivered like some Christmas gift. We expect that we will be happy and peaceful when others become peaceful or when our government gets its act together or our bosses wake up and recognize our magnificence or our children become successful, all as a reflection of who we are. I played that game for years, to no avail. Since then, I have learned to carve out happy, peaceful moments for myself and it is by taking the time to connect to Mother Nature in these simple yet profound ways that makes my heart sing….and my life worthwhile….and awakens me to the truth of who I AM. Nature is God’s mirror…the mirror of the soul.